yet, I Smile

A ministry for ​wome​n by women

A Christian faith-based community for women who ​have experienced trauma

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(Devotion, Inspiration, ​Prayer)

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“Strength and ​dignity are her ​clothing and her ​position is ​strong and ​secure; and she ​smiles at the ​future”

Psalm 31:25 AMP

This week’s topic:

Isolation

In Watermark Church's Re:Generation Ministry Groundwork book, they say ​that "a heart that's well is a heart that tells." I didn't believe in this ​philosophy for almost 40 years. I thought, the more I kept my pain hidden, ​it would just magically disappear because 'time heals all'....right? Further, I ​thought...why should I tell others about my pain because a) they wouldn't ​understand, b) they would judge me for my actions, c) they would see 'the ​real me' (imposter syndrome), or c) they would just tell me to pray more...if ​my faith would just be strong enough, then I could be healed.


While I whole-heartedly believe that faith can heal, I also believe that ​behavior must follow the belief. Jesus doesn't say - keep all your secrets ​hidden and I will make it all better. In fact, Proverbs 18:1 says, "whoever ​isolates himself seeks his own desire; he breaks out against all sound ​judgment." That was me. I sought my own desire and I broke sound ​judgment. I thought if I could just 'fix it' myself, then all would be fine. ​And, I told people, I was fine.


Like Matthew West sings in his song, 'Truth be Told,' we aren't always 'fine.' ​We struggle; we hurt; we grieve. I was struggling; I was hurting. I was ​living in daily fear, panic, anxiety, and pain. To be honest, I was quite ​comfortable staying there. At least it was an experience or a feeling that I ​knew well. I thought people’s judgment and disappointment would ​immediately follow my confession of my darkest emotions. And, well...I just ​couldn't take that. I was dealing with too much emotion on my own, I ​certainly didn't need other's judgments or disappointments on top of that. ​So, I remained isolated and 'fine.'


You know what is really incredible - when I finally confessed my biggest ​secret - alcohol abuse - my friends and family didn't judge me or find me ​incapable of being loved. Quite the opposite. My husband forgave me; my ​family forgave me; my friends forgave me. It was the first time that I ​really felt vulnerable and free at the same time.


The isolation I put myself through only made the damage deepen rather ​than go away. I turned more and more into my harmful thoughts and ​behaviors when I could have been getting the support that I needed all ​along. When I was afraid that my friends and family would be quick to ​judge, I was judging them before giving them a chance to act differently

than what I anticipated. I didn't give them the benefit of the doubt that ​they would actually wrap their arms around me and provide help.


Battles aren't won by a single person. Battles are won with a community of ​warriors. It's unhealthy to hurt in isolation because it just builds that ​hurt higher and stronger.





This week’s topic:

Strength

Inspiration

This piece of scripture refers to believers struggling with their ​faith. But, I resonated with this scripture because it reminds me of ​the strength needed to endure trauma. I have often felt like a ​bruised reed or a smoldering wick, barely hanging onto living; ​sometimes asking myself why am I even here and sometimes just ​wondering if I will always carry this weight with me - but I wanted ​to be free....free from the shackles of pain, shame, or guilt. I have ​been that bruised reed, heavy with the weight of my shame but ​not breaking. Finding peace from underneath the shame has been ​more of a slow climb rather than a rush of relief and acceptance. I ​have accepted myself for what I have been through and recognize ​that ‘the act’ doesn’t define the unique, complex beauty of ‘the’ ​identity of self. Acceptance, for me, is knowing that ‘the act’ ​doesn’t outline my future, but I have a say in what that affect is - ​use it to change into something a little more like who God wants ​me to be or as an excuse to come so far but don’t push over the ​edge. I have lived in that limbo for decades - perched between ​shame and life. But, here I am ready to live. I have found strength ​in God, yes. But, I have also found strength in a community of ​women who have experienced similar traumas and are also ​bearing underneath the weight of pain. To know that my fears, my ​emotions, my thoughts are not in isolation. They are replicated ​throughout many souls and in that commonality, we can find ​strength in each other.

De​votion

Matthew 12:17

A bruised reed he will not break, and ​a smoldering wick he will not snuff ​out....

Pr​ayer

Lord, please help us feel your ​acceptance apart from the shame we ​have put on ourselves. Show us your ​enduring love.

Matthew West’s song “Truth be ​Told” provided me with courage ​to open up about my pain. I ​wasn’t fine and I needed to share ​that. I hope you find some ​inspiration in this song, too.

horizons weekend

because hope is on the horizon.

Horizon Weekends are designed to build connections ​with other women who have experienced trauma ​through healthy living and a Christian-based ​community.


  • Hiking / walking (any level welcome)


  • Light exercise (yoga, stretching)


  • Creativity (baking, cooking, painting)


  • Community building (themed evening events, meals ​shared)


  • Sober weekend (no alcohol, drugs, or smoking)


Try one weekend, getting out in nature, maybe ​designing a piece of art, sipping some coffee or tea, and ​finding peace.


For more information, email ​yetismileministry@gmail.com


Or, if interested in being a part of our next Horizon ​weekend, fill out our Horizon Weekend Interest Form.

about us

Rebecca Burton

Kristen Elaine Whalen

Harper Burton

A life-long educator who loves her hubby, her kids, ​and her dog....and of course, Jesus. Through her ​own traumatic experiences, she has learned to find ​joy, trust God, and finally, trust others.

An artist who loves her kid fiercely and her God ​even more. She finds beauty in the small things and ​rejoices in community. Through her traumatic ​experiences, she has learned...

An adventurer who loves communing with God ​through nature. She loves the peace that only nature ​can bring. Through her experiences, she has learned ​how to trust again, build better relationships, and to ​have a softer heart.

Yet I Smile MInistry

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